Naomi

Every page in Naomi's secret diary shares a sentimental recollection of her past. Deep within her heart lies a treasure of memories, quietly sealed and never spoken of again. They say memory is a way of holding onto the things you love and desire, but not for Naomi.

Just another day being me.

Sometimes its just so hard to be independant, but no harm trying.

The way of the world teaches us that when you set your stakes too high, you're bound to lose

I found this picture while clearing out the junk in my room today. It was a picture of the character Bert from Saseme Street. I remember drawing Bert when I was very young, maybe during kindergarten days. It was my very first drawing, and drawing was my passion back then. Back then having a passion for drawing is almost impossible. DRawing blocks were expensive and all i had was rough paper. Any documents of some sort, as long as they were good. I had to steal tracing paper from my granny's sewing table to trace out Bert and his sandwich. And every drop of ink from my so called marker pens are extremely worth more than gold. I drew Bert one afternoon with no intention of anything. I just drew him and imagination flowed freely. When you were young you don;t actually know what passion is, you merely feel it. That's what happened to me. That same afternoon Daddy came home and I showed him my Bert. He liked it and decided to frame it. Suddenly I was esctatic. My drawing was appreciated in a simple manner, and it was going to be framed and displayed proudly. I felt that I had accomplished something. My first achievement. But most importantly, my Daddy liked it. And so Bert was framed up and it made me feel so proud of myself. My Bert and me. More twenty years passed and two houses later, Bert came and went. Sometimes I see him, sometimes I don't. Finally as the years went on, Bert remained quiet whle I moved on with life. Until today, when we finally got reunited, suddenly I felt a sudden nostalgic rush sweeping over me. Bert came back. This time without a frame, worn, tired, torn and tattered. In that quiet moment time stood still. Bert reminded me of that afternoon i drew him. The same afternoon I showed Daddy and his joy upon seeing Bert. In all the splendour of what used to be a beautiful painting, here in my hands lay a piece of my past. The only treasure that had stayed with me throughout my growing up years. It was serence and peaceful, for life had not haunt the drawing the way it haunted me. Like a time capsule, Bert broght me back to the days where everthing was carefree and never was there a thing to worry about. It was such a beautiful charade, being young and free. Rules were non existent and every single day is a joy lived to the fullest. Those fairytale moments, angelic moments of my lifetime. Happy families radiating with genuine love. There were no bad people and evil only exist in hell, where thieves go after they die. I was on top of the world, where the stallion meets the sun. A world where both Mummy and Daddy loved me.There was unlimited sunshine, and I did not want it to end. Bert would want me to know that life would soon turn out to be a battlefield. A lesson learnt, that the way of the world teaches us that when you place your stakes too high, you are bound to lose. Many times i reflect upon this life alone, or in a crowded room, i tend to miss out one very important thing. That God put me on this earth with a purpose. That purpose in life, I swear i do not know. The missing element, misplaced in all the right places. Every day and moment spent, without realising it might never come back. Until today, I have not found what I have been looking for. Beneath the softness of every moonlight, I would dream for an answer. But a fairy had yet to fly by and wisper an answer. When I looked at Bert again, I remember a time where I thought I had knew all there is need to know about life. I locked up all my fears and didn't realise I was being so naive. Each time I tried to close an episode, the deviis start to haunt me. Sometimes I do not know how to deal with my emotional demons. I didn;t know all this were part of growing up. Nobody taught me. Many a time, I do not like what life tried to show me. I hide behind a door. And i would whisper a silent prayerr. I had wanted a happy family like before. I had wanted things to go back the way it was before. I do not want any tragedy. Wise men would say this is all part and parcel of growing up. But i do not want to warp my parcel like this. Mine would be a bright and cheery gift wrap. God, I was too blind. I got lost in this game and all my hopes gone with the wind. Isnt this a game of chance? I would believe so. I might not know where im heading for, but i know i was never alone. There were a lot of things I cannot deny and while growing up, that was not easy task to deal with. In a glance, the picture seem perfect. Beneath the canvas, silent tears drop one by one. I do not know where to begin. Fate determines everything. When things get too difficult, I just break diwn and give up. Not healthy, I know. I do not have answers and only this much i can say...Im only human. Bet came back to my life and he will remind me that I was once again that little boy who drew him. Who once had passion and lived a life of candy and sweet melodies. I will move on. Once again, let the batle begins.

Something to remember

1. Always answer the phone by the left ear.

2. Do not drink coffee twice a day.

3. Do not take pills with cool water.

4. Do not have huge meals after 5pm.

5. Reduce the amount of oily food you consume.

6. Drink more water in the morning, less at night

7. Keep your distance from handphone chargers.

8. Do not use headphones/earphones for long period of time.

9. Best sleeping time is from 10pm to 6am.

10. Do not lie down immediately after taking medicine before sleeping.

11. When battery is down to the last grid or bar, do not answer the phone as he radiation is 1000 times more.

Just Because...

im quite doesn't mean i don't have much to say
im sarcastic doesn't mean i don't take it seriously
i forgive doesn't mean i forget
im stubborn doesn't mean im not easy going
i don't show my feelings doesn't mean i do not have any
im not like you doesn't mean im weird
i don't say i love you doesn't mean i don't

Surah Al-Ikhlas - The Purity‏

When Starting Work
Read this surah before starting all means of work because with this reading will out stay devil inside our body and also all around us, they will run out anxiously, example like heated worms.

Before Coming Into To The House
Before you enter the house, read surah Al-Ikhlas (as many as 3 times). Enter the house with right leg and by uttering “Bismillah” . Salam house members and if there’s no one at home still salam because the house angel would respond.
Practice praying because first salam (is compulsory) expressed at the end of prayer will help us to answer the questions in grave. When angel salam us in grave, a person who seldom prayed will find it difficult to reply to the salam. But those who often prayed and practiced expressing salam at the end of prayer; it will help them to reply to the angel’s salam.

Sore Point
Rasullah SAW's decree: One who reads surah Al-Ikhlas during illness until he dies, he then will not rot/decay in his grave, will be safe him from narrowing of his grave and plenty of angels will bring him with their wing, pass through siratul mustaqim then, head to heaven. They light up in Tadzikaratul Qurthuby.

Khatam al-Quran
Allah (swt) said to Rasullah (S.A.W) “Oh Messenger, ever ask a puzzle to believers: Who among you who can khatam Al Qur'an in a period of two-three minute?
No single of his friends answered. In fact Saiyidina Ummar (r.a) had said that it it impossible to khatam Qur'an so fast.
Later Saiyyidina Ali (r.a) put up his hand. Saiyidina Ummar (r.a) said to Saiyidina Ali (r.a) that Saiyidina Ali r.a (on small level at that time) does not know what is being said. Then Saiyidina Ali (r.a) read surah Al-Ikhlas's three times. Rasullah (S.A.W) Allah swt’s messenger answers saying that Saiyidina Ali (r.a) is right.
One who reads surah Al-Ikhlas once gets reward equivalent to reciting 10 jus of the Al Quran. Therefore, reciting Surah Al-Ikhlas thrice is same as khatam one Quran.

Reciter’s Reward
Said Ibnu Abbas (r.a) that Rasulullah SAW has decreed that: I saw when i went to the sky, then I have looked Arasy from above 360,000 joint and long distance, among a joint to a joint is 300,000 year travel. At each joint there have been fields, as many as 12,000 and each field was as wide as from east until westward.
In each field there were 80,000 angel who all read surah Al-Ikhlas. After they completed reading the surah, they said: Dear Allah we, indeed reward from reading this, we give our's to people who are reading surah Al-Ikhlas be it man nor woman.
Rasulullah SAW decree more: Indeed ‘Qul Huwallahu Ahadu’ was written in angel Jibrail (a.s)'s wing, ‘Allahhus Somad’ was written in angel Mikail (a.s)'s wing, 'Lamyalid walam yuulad' written in the angel Izrail (a.s)'s wing, ‘Walam yakullahu kufuwan ahadu’ was written on the angel Israfil (a.s)'s wing.

Note
Supposing friends want to collect eternity share, send this knowledge to one another. Like Rasullah SAW's decree: 'Share knowledge even if it’s one sentence'. Indeed when a human being is dead, only 3 matter would be brought him with: (1) His alms / charity, (2) His children's duas and (3) Beneficial knowledge she/he conveyed to others.

6 perkara yg Allah sembunyikan

Allah SWT selesai menciptakan Jibrail as dengan bentuk yang cantik, dan Allah menciptakan pula baginya 600 sayap yang panjang , sayap itu antara timur dan barat (ada pendapat lain menyatakan124, 000 sayap). Setelah itu Jibrail as memandang dirinya sendiri dan berkata:

"Wahai Tuhanku, adakah engkau menciptakan makhluk yang lebih baik daripada aku?."

Lalu Allah swt berfirman yang bermaksud.. "Tidak"

Kemudian Jibrail as berdiri serta solat dua rakaat kerana syukur kepada Allah swt. dan tiap-tiap rakaat itu lamanya 20,000 tahun.

Setelah selesai Jibrail as solat, maka Allah SWT berfirman yang bermaksud. "Wahai Jibrail, ka! mu telah menyembah aku dengan ibadah yang bersungguh-sungguh, dan tidak ada seorang pun yang menyembah kepadaku seperti ibadat kamu, akan tetapi di akhir zaman nanti akan datang seorang nabi yang mulia yang paling aku cintai, namanya Muhammad.' Dia mempunyai umat yang lemah dan sentiasa berdosa, sekiranya mereka itu mengerjakan solat dua rakaat yang hanya sebentar sahaja, dan mereka dalam keadaan lupa serta serba kurang, fikiran mereka melayang bermacam-macam dan dosa mereka pun besar juga. Maka demi kemuliaannKu dan ketinggianKu, sesungguhnya solat mereka itu aku lebih sukai dari solatmu itu. Kerana mereka mengerjakan solat atas perintahKu, sedangkan kamu mengerjakan solat bukan atas perintahKu."

Kemudian Jibrail as berkata: "Ya Tuhanku, apakah yang Engkau hadiahkan kepada mereka sebagai imbalan ibadat mereka?"

Lalu Allah berfirman yang bermaksud. "Ya Jibrail, akan Aku berikan syurga Ma'waa sebagai tempat tinggal..."

Kemudian Jibrail as meminta izin kepada Allah untuk melihat syurga Ma'waa. Setelah Jibrail as mendapat izin dari Allah SWT maka pergilah Jibrail as dengan mengembangkan sayapnya dan terbang, setiap dia mengembangkan dua sayapnya dia boleh menempuh jarak perjalanan 3000 tahun, terbanglah malaikat jibrail as selama 300 tahun sehingga ia merasa letih dan lemah dan akhirnya dia turun singgah berteduh di bawah bayangan sebuah pohon dan dia sujud kepada Allah SWT lalu ia berkata dalam sujud:

"Ya Tuhanku apakah sudah aku menempuh jarak perjalanan setengahnya, atau sepertiganya, atau seperempatnya? "

Kemudian Allah swt berfirman yang bermaksud. "Wahai Jibrail, kalau kamu dapat terbang selama 3000 tahun dan meskipun aku memberikan kekuatan kepadamu seperti kekuatan yang engkau miliki, lalu kamu terbang seperti yang telah kamu lakukan, nescaya kamu tidak akan sampai kepada sepersepuluh dari beberapa perpuluhan yang telah kuberikan kepada umat Muhammad terhadap imbalan solat dua rakaat yang mereka kerjakan.... ."

Marilah sama2 kita fikirkan dan berusaha lakukan... Sesungguhnya Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan enam perkara iaitu :

* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan redhaNya dalam taat.
* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan murkaNya di dalam maksiat.
* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan nama-Nya yang Maha Agung di dalam Al-Quran.
* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan Lailatul Qadar di dalambulan Ramadhan.
* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan solat yang palingutama di dalam solat (yang lima waktu).
* Allah S.W.T telahmenyembunyikan (tarikh terjadinya) hari kiamat di dalam semua hari.

Semoga kita mendapat berkat daripada ilmu ini. Wallahualam