Debutante

I do not know how many times I have deleted my previous blogs but apparently im so sick of keeping on creating new ones. This time its going to be a private affair. So its here to stay this time. One day, this life story will eventually end. When will that be, I do not know. All Im aware of, is the fact that at this point of time, a lot of things will change. Life is going to be different. I still hang on to the believe that karma exists. God is fair. Whatever befalls you has a reason. Start believing that Life is never a smooth journey, but its up to you to see thru rose tinted glasses or just an eye patch. I can be crazy at times, sometimes I do not know what Im saying. Most of the times I think im nutz. I do not know why. I see the opening of my blog as a new beginning. I have nothing interesting to share. I lead a simple life. Everyday is a new day, good or bad. I will learn to count my blessings. I have goals, just like everybody else. Just that someimes I do not know how to set it straight. I guess this is what living is all about. Many things are unpredictable. The past year had been very strenuous. I do not know how i managed to pull through. I have my conflicts and unresolved issues. I try to deal with them. I try many times not to let them take control of my life. Sometimes its just too difficult. They say don't fight it. Fate will guide you along the way. Things are easier said than done. Problems with work and family will always be around. They cant imprison me. All the while it was me who has been setting up emotional walls around myself. Sometimes i forgot that I have a choice. I forget things. I need constant reminders. I forgot at times Im only human. I seek a simple life. A desire so difficult and almost impossible. Isnt it weird that when you try to make your life simple, complications start coming through bit by bit. Life twirls around you like a snake. And it bites when you least expect it. Wake up calls are good, only if they come at the right moment. I have to tell myself to stop dreaming. I hate being a pisces, pisces people dream too much. I'm setting my record straight. I know my rules, cos I set them. I need time. But as you know, time will never be on your side. And time and tide wait for no man. Sometimes thats the scary part. Im moving on. I changing things. I believe in things, one at a time. I believe in hope and a shining star. One day things will be different. I depend on me to make a difference.
I depend on me to give myself another chance. Things will be better.